Sometimes there are moments where too much is happening, where life throws too much at you, and today is one of those days for me.
I realized I never really talk about personal experiences as they’re happening. I’m more of a “sit on it and reflect” type blob, but today is just gonna be one of those episodes because right now, today is too much. TOOOO MUCHHHHHHH.
I’m getting thrown too much.
So I just wanna talk through the things that kind of help me on a day like this where I’m feeling too many things.
I’m overstimulated.
I had too much caffeine
And it’s TOO MUCH.
These are some things I do to calm myself down and what I’m about to go diiIIiIIiive into after I finish recording this episode.
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Firstly: we’re taking a pause. We’re giving a moment to this crazy day.
Dear crazy day,
YOU ARE VALID. YOU ARE HERE. YOU ARE THE REALITY AND I SEE YOU AND I’M GLAD I GET TO EXPERIENCE YOU…
But when it is like one thing after another thing and you’re like:
What is this timeline I’m in?
What is going on right now?
Why does my body feel crazy?
Why do I feel like I can’t process things in the way that I normally do?
Why am I feeling overwhelmed?
Like, too many emotions, too many outward world things coming at me, and I don’t have the bandwidth for it…
Thats when I enact my plan. My ultimate reset relaxation plan. And that’s what I’m gonna share with you right now.
And it may seem lame, but it works for me.
So take it with a grain of salt!!!
A Bath
Honestly, whenever I’m in the “oh no it’s happening” moment… it doesn’t really matter what time of day it is, it could be 9 am, you can catch me taking a bath.
That is like my safe space.
My happy place.
My me moment.
My ultimate re-centering.
It’s a bath… specifically with bubbles.
Specifically specifically with a bath bomb.
Maybe a book, but when I’m super overstimulated? Literally nothing.
Just me in a dark room, in a dark bathroom, taking a bath in silence.
I feel like, for me, this brings me back down to reality.
I don’t know what it is.
There’s probably some scientific thing where it’s like — it makes your body tired. It relaxes you, but that’s number one ALWAYS.
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Number 2.
I am watching my comfort show and I am playing my comfort video game.
Sometimes simultaneously.
Crazy, I know.
But that’s just what needs to happen on a day like today.
I have a new comfort show.
It may surprise you.
It definitely surprised me.
American Ninja Warrior. OKAY HEAR ME OUT. HEAR ME OUT!!!!
Specifically the live channels that come with TVs sometimes that just play one show on loop, 24 hours a day.
That’s what I’m throwing on the TV.
This became my new thing when I went to LA a couple weeks ago and was at an Airbnb and just popped on some random channel that they had on the TV to relax… and it was American Ninja Warrior.
Whoever created that whole thing, props to you, because it got me hooked so quick.
There’s not like drama.
It’s not like up and down.
You kind of really know what’s gonna happen.
People going through this obstacle course…
It’s like… soothing to watch.
Because there’s not too much variation — but also enough variation for it to keep your attention.
I don’t know why i’m YAPPIN on American Ninja Warrior but…go watch an episode! Go watch one and tell me what you think!
OOOOH MY GAME. MY COMFORT GAME.
If you’ve listened to this podcast then you know: my supreme comfort game.
One of my soulmates in this life.
Sims 4.
I’ve probably logged like 600 hours on that game.
Which may be cringe, but I take pride in it.
Honestly. I put a shift into that game!!!
I like to go into my little reality on there and make my little world and play with my little Sims and just kinda — not zone out, not veg — but just place myself in a position where I know that my comfort and peace is a priority.
And for me that’s:
On my comfy cloudy couch,
With a blanket,
Some tea,
American Ninja Warrior,
And Sims on my lap.
AND THAT’S WHAT I’M DOING RIGHT AFTER THIS I CANNOT WAIT. I CAN’T WAIT.
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THREE.
Water.
So much water.
I become a fish.
Today I will become a fish.
I plan to chug.
Because when I don’t have enough water, and then I have too much caffeine, and then things are thrown my way?
My body can’t handle it.
I can’t do it.
I had a milk tea today.
And a matcha.
And MINIMAL water.
And that was just not it. I’m such a caffeine lightweight.
I can’t handle my caffeine.
But water brings me back.
WATER IS LOVE. WATER IS LIFE.
I’m so happy water is a thing.
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FOUR!
Tonight, I'm gonna SLEEEEEEP.
I’m gonna try to be in bed by like 9 PM.
Cause sleep is so much more important than we realize.
And I’ve been noticing this a lot lately. That my sleep health directly impacts my mental health, and how my day ends up going.
Sleep is everything to me.
I picture my body like a little iPhone.
And when I get my eight hours?
I’m charging ALL the way back up to 100.
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And last but not least…NUMBER 5.
On a crazy day like today:
I am giving myself permission.
I’m giving myself all the permission in the world.
I am allowing today, the rest of the day, to be dedicated toward inner peace and comfortability.
It’s the evening, so I’ve gotten all my work done.
Actually sidetone: I do wanna say… this is such a privilege.
To be able to have the time to dedicate mental health moments for yourself is a privilege and I want to acknowledge that.
It is a privilege to be able to spend time self-soothing.
So if you’re listening to this and you don’t have time, and you feel like you don’t have time to take a moment for yourself, I just want to let you know:
I see you.
And I am sending you so much love.
Even if you can just find 10 minutes here or there to let yourself decompress, to breathe, to find space, to self-soothe, etc.
You should try, because you really deserve to nurture your body.
And you deserve some peace in this life.
I know you work so hard, and I know how stressful it is to not have moments for yourself so I just want to say, I LOVE YOU. And I hope you’re able to find some pockets of peace in your day.
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The rest of the day for me is just gonna be:
Listening to my body.
Giving myself all of the space and all the grace that I can.
Just riding the wave.
It is a supreme comfort to me that I know this feeling won’t last forever.
This crazy won’t last forever.
I can rest easy knowing that I can wake up tomorrow and make it a new day that’s completely different from this one.
And having a day like today doesn’t make me any less productive.
Any less valuable.
Any less worthy of anything.
This just comes with the territory of being alive, honestly.
And accepting that has made a huge difference in my life.
Instead of beating myself up and being like:
“Oh my god I’m not being productive!!!!!”
Or “Oh my god I’m wasting five hours just watching American Ninja Warrior and playing Sims and drinking tea and messing around…”
I don’t subscribe to that model anymore.
Life is too short for me to exist in uncomfortability for the purpose of being a productive member of society.
SOMETIMES I DON’T WANNA BE A PRODUCTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY!
SOMETIMES I WANNA BE A COUCH POTATO.
AND THAT’S OKAY.
Because my life is for me.
And if couch potato is how I wanna choose to spend my day?
Then I have no shame in that.
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And yeah.
Wow.
Okay.
I’m gonna end it there.
Because this made me excited to get to my me time.
Thanks for listening to my ramble.
I love you so much.
I hope you have a good week, and a good weekend.
Okay.
Byyyyyyye!
-Len ♡
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