It’s 4:27am in Honolulu Hawaii… I’m sitting on a beautiful porch that belongs to a sweet friend of mine that over looks Diamond Head and downtown Honolulu… it’s still very dark here in the early AM… I’m sitting here because in about an hour all of the morning flights leaving the island are going to be taking off and one of those planes will contain my grown daughter and her family (her husband and 3 kids) my grandkids… they just ended a 10 day summer vacation at a Ranch on the North Shore… a Ranch I happen to live on and work at Thats owned by my sister… and guess what? She has been estranged from me for a while now and insisted that I not be there while she was there… so I came and stayed at my friends house… I would be lying if I said I was ok with that… I’m not… I miss her and the kids like crazy… but for reasons I’m still uncertain about she’s cut me out of her life and it hurts like hell… I woke up early like I do everyday … but today I did so only so I could see the planes take off knowing they’d be on one of them… my heart is broken they came all this way and didn’t even once ask where I was (she knows I live there) As soon as I sat down this morning I open my email and there was your email … about closure… the universe knew I needed those words, your words at this very moment… for that I thank you… no truer words could be spoken… no more perfect explanation could I receive right now… I know that I’m the only one who can give my heart the peace I deserve… and I do… and I am… thank you sooooooo much! I love you too!! Byyyyy Dina your fellow blobby friend in Hawai’i… Mahalo🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺
I am the result of ALL THE STUFF, the good the bad that has happened to me. At this point I am pretty glorious because of it. Good/bad are just values to thing that happen. I survived the bad, BUT I have also SURVIVED the good. Ever see those folks who have massive lottery wins and their life falls into ruins? They could not process the good stuff, which is a tragedy. Yet it is also a LEARNING experience. Go on, and do better, be Better, act BETTER. I have come to realize I am happiest in poverty and adversity since it is my home waters, and I own the map, I keep it in my heart. Success, popularity, and riches are a poisoned blessing. It takes much MORE to negotiate the storms of success than it does to negotiate the chaos of well, CHAOS. I have been cast from the waters of life onto so many unfamiliar shores of doubt and uncertainty, that I can do a good job of 'winging it'. Far beter than any course of study ever could pre[are me. Bring on the chaos, because hope floats, and it tends to end up on a beach.
This is hard.. it took me a few years to have a closure but I still struggle sometimes.. all I can do is to focus on my peace, and keep myself busy with the things I love. Journaling also helps me process my feelings and thoughts 🤍 sending you all my love!!!
The greatest work I do is with closure, and it awesome you are talking about it, because it is the key to creating joy in our lives as well as working through all the shadow within us. Asking what part of me participated in being the role I played in what happened, and honoring the role he she they played for me in order for me to desire to deal with the pain. Even if someone else perpetrated or was the arsehole in this, what part of the pain I have that is in being the victim and is holding on to that victimhood, and any aspects that relate to that is key. If they never played this role for you exactly the way they did, would you have the opportunity to learn about yourself in the way you could. So thanking them through their greater being is always helpful, especially because it truly helps release all resentment in relation to what happened. And this is true in reverse too where you are the one that caused the issue. Thank you Lennie
It’s 4:27am in Honolulu Hawaii… I’m sitting on a beautiful porch that belongs to a sweet friend of mine that over looks Diamond Head and downtown Honolulu… it’s still very dark here in the early AM… I’m sitting here because in about an hour all of the morning flights leaving the island are going to be taking off and one of those planes will contain my grown daughter and her family (her husband and 3 kids) my grandkids… they just ended a 10 day summer vacation at a Ranch on the North Shore… a Ranch I happen to live on and work at Thats owned by my sister… and guess what? She has been estranged from me for a while now and insisted that I not be there while she was there… so I came and stayed at my friends house… I would be lying if I said I was ok with that… I’m not… I miss her and the kids like crazy… but for reasons I’m still uncertain about she’s cut me out of her life and it hurts like hell… I woke up early like I do everyday … but today I did so only so I could see the planes take off knowing they’d be on one of them… my heart is broken they came all this way and didn’t even once ask where I was (she knows I live there) As soon as I sat down this morning I open my email and there was your email … about closure… the universe knew I needed those words, your words at this very moment… for that I thank you… no truer words could be spoken… no more perfect explanation could I receive right now… I know that I’m the only one who can give my heart the peace I deserve… and I do… and I am… thank you sooooooo much! I love you too!! Byyyyy Dina your fellow blobby friend in Hawai’i… Mahalo🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺
I am the result of ALL THE STUFF, the good the bad that has happened to me. At this point I am pretty glorious because of it. Good/bad are just values to thing that happen. I survived the bad, BUT I have also SURVIVED the good. Ever see those folks who have massive lottery wins and their life falls into ruins? They could not process the good stuff, which is a tragedy. Yet it is also a LEARNING experience. Go on, and do better, be Better, act BETTER. I have come to realize I am happiest in poverty and adversity since it is my home waters, and I own the map, I keep it in my heart. Success, popularity, and riches are a poisoned blessing. It takes much MORE to negotiate the storms of success than it does to negotiate the chaos of well, CHAOS. I have been cast from the waters of life onto so many unfamiliar shores of doubt and uncertainty, that I can do a good job of 'winging it'. Far beter than any course of study ever could pre[are me. Bring on the chaos, because hope floats, and it tends to end up on a beach.
Thank you Lennnie♥️
This is hard.. it took me a few years to have a closure but I still struggle sometimes.. all I can do is to focus on my peace, and keep myself busy with the things I love. Journaling also helps me process my feelings and thoughts 🤍 sending you all my love!!!
The greatest work I do is with closure, and it awesome you are talking about it, because it is the key to creating joy in our lives as well as working through all the shadow within us. Asking what part of me participated in being the role I played in what happened, and honoring the role he she they played for me in order for me to desire to deal with the pain. Even if someone else perpetrated or was the arsehole in this, what part of the pain I have that is in being the victim and is holding on to that victimhood, and any aspects that relate to that is key. If they never played this role for you exactly the way they did, would you have the opportunity to learn about yourself in the way you could. So thanking them through their greater being is always helpful, especially because it truly helps release all resentment in relation to what happened. And this is true in reverse too where you are the one that caused the issue. Thank you Lennie